RECALCULATING

The sense of smell may be the strongest one. Something about the reminiscent scent of another human being on my skin ….it makes everything more difficult.
I fight you. You wont penetrate my heart or my mind the way you do my body. Oh no sir. You are used for one thing and one thing only.
No cuddles, no naps, no walks in the park, no investing on my part.
No deep conversations or psychological dissections
No moody displays of rejection.
I try to disconnect the connection.
It’s all for pretend
I do have the distinction.