HEY JUPITER

Always looking our for that little girl I once was, getting her the satisfaction she’s always wanted…..she was a fool! I am not satisfied with her silly nostalgic whims.

She was totally retarded over this boy for no due reason other than he was great for kissing and she liked how he smelled.

I gave her what she wanted tonight. Her nostalgia…..that sucked.
…..but he’s still a great kisser and his smell is on me still.

She was the one with expectations, not me.

BUH BYE

You are one to judge me. WOW!!!! Judge me. I love it when you judge me baby it turns me on.

Your kids are number 1 to you and I respect that like I’ve always told you. But DON’T fucking start acting like you are the all knowing mighty God of relationships when you snidely ask me “how long were you married?” How long have you been rushing out of my bed in the morning to get your kids ready for school? And how many before me? How many of those 17 years have you been faithful to your wife?

I only wanted you for one thing you fool and your home was wrecked long before I came along.

You can pretend your normal life till the cows come home but you will never be normal. You're so fucked up in the head from your past, you don’t even know right from wrong, you're not foolin' anyone worth foolin'. You cant control yourself. All you know is fighting. Physically and mentally, that’s all you do is fight. And you pride yourself on it and yes I do have a problem with it.

Make believe between the trees
She is her and I am me.

What You Do To Me

You keep me waiting like you know I need but I hate it and its tedious like threading a needle with swollen finger tips.
Your life goes on without me and mine without you just fine…..doesn’t stop me from wanting them to collide.
Only together do we possess everything we need….
You set everything in me free.

By Request-Put That In Your Blog And Suck It!

My previous post struck a nerve.Allllll day he's been mentioning things about my personal life that I have left out of my blog and says "put that in your blog!" Well okay then.

I have been sleeping with a married man and father for months now. I met him through his friend who pushed my last button. The retaliation was a fantastic success.

This married man has since been telling me he loves me, which I never believed, and hope he never believed me when I said it back, it was only polite conversation. We sang and danced and laughed and played together. I used him for sex and affection.

I am in the process of divorce, I am not privy to the status of that situation because I did not pay the lawyer. I am merely waiting for paperwork to come in the mail so that I can change my name. My ex-husband lives in Texas, I do not talk to him, I live on my own, I take care of myself.....I am divorced.

What else did you want me to put in my blog? Oh yeah. This one I swore to secrecy so I'm really sorry, I can't help you, but I'll say what I can.

Last night I was called late to assist someone whom I love dearly with a situation that I will remain completely helpless and useless in but I do what I can. It was emotionally draining and I was up late, waaaay past my bedtime. I thank you Mr Married man for training me to function at work with very little sleep. That was helpful today. I know that makes me awful, suffering to assist another human being.

What else would you like to hear? I've got nothing to hide? "nobody reads that shit anyway" Oh, but they do, for you know every word.

It's not about anyone reading it.....its about me writing it. Right now my life is about me. It was never my intention for it to be any different.

A Waste Is A Waste Is A Warning Is A Waste

I gave you the warning that I was cranky. I graced you with the opportunity to not be around me during this time....and you persisted. INSTANT animosity from you when just last night you were telling me all the ways in which you love me. The smell of my hair, the sounds i make when you hold me, tucking me in when I fall asleep sick. You've always recognized who I am as long as I've known you, which isn't very long , remind yourself. I do appreciate that boundlessly.
Your mistake tonight is telling me that "My time is valuable" As if yours is the only time of anyone's that means anything, and I somehow wasted it by not using it. When I tell you my time is also valuable you tell me that you've seen me waste it.
Well sir, the only situation I can think of where you'd ever had the pleasure of seeing me waste my time is when I'm with you.

".....I sailed away to China in a little row boat to find ya, and you said you had to get your laundry clean....."