“If you need me call me”

“If you need me call me” The problem is that I DON’T “need” you. I have to pretend that I do in order to get your attention, and that isn’t working too well for me right now. I just “want” you. I want your company. I want to continue building on what we have been, and I want to feel like I’m not crazy for feeling so much for you. If I “needed” you, you would be here. But there’s a huge problem with people who “need” others.
I was there. I was that girl you’re trying to help. I had no respect for myself and I cried to my husband A LOT. And I cried for HELP. A LOT. He did everything he could to help me, he went above and beyond and probably cried about it himself sometimes. But I had enough intelligence to know that I couldn’t change as long as I had someone taking care of me. I used to wish that he would either die or divorce me so that I could take care of myself for once; I have never done that until now.....and now, I am happy.
“Now” meaning in general, not meaning “right now” Right now I’m wondering why you are spending your energies on two people who have done nothing but fuck you over. And completely disregarding a girl who has nothing but kindness and love for you. A girl who doesn’t “need” you for anything, rather “wants” you….gets nowhere fast, doesn’t she?