I am angry about my feelings catching up with me. Removing wedding pictures from frames, being ignored, moving out….none of that made me angry or sad.
Making a grocery list and planning out my nourishment for the week made me a little sad. I’m so used to thinking about someone else when I go shopping, it was a labor of love and a natural instinct as a woman and a gatherer.
I was also looking at recipes I had saved online and deleted a bunch that were meant for parties at the house or just something I thought he would like, in my attempt at being a domestic goddess.
First pay check should come tomorrow or Fri. And yes mom, I know I need to watch my money, but I also need to eat some quality foods. Weekends are for cooking and cleaning, there will be a hot meal on the table and there will be someone to share it with, even if it’s just Boomer & Buster.
I also need to start eating breakfast…and lunch….and dinner before 9
Ive been eating only once a day for quite a while, not for any reason except for lack of hunger or tolerance to hunger, not sure which. My body is used to it and its quite convenient to not be hungry all day, but I know its not healthy.
Havent eaten my one meal tonight because theres nothing to be had, hence the grocery list. I don’t have hunger pangs but I know my body craves nourishment, it will be an early night, and a long day tomorrow.
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