No emotions in me whatsoever when he stopped by. That in itself makes me sad but I wasnt sad to see him, though I wasn't really excited either. Wasn't even excited to get money because I know I have to keep it for bills and rent. (booo)
Happy about divorcing someone who has no time for anyone but himself. Occasionally slightly distraught when memories of him being a different man, and me a different woman, and our life together are brought to my attention, mostly through photographs.I don't think that we will even be friends when its all said and done and I'm fine with that. I have said "his friendship is more important to me than 'screwing' him in the divorce (use the word screwing how ever you'd like) But it's not important for me at all to be friends with him.
My happiness level has gone way up since I moved out and anxiety levels way down. Not bashing him, he's a decent person, just not relationship material. We are now both completely different people than the people we married.
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