Among The Rubble

Just found a piece of cardboard on the floor among canine created debris housing a phone number of a “house guest” I had a month ago. I was happy to find it because I do remember waking up in the morning, kinda looking around, but not to anxiously, for a note or something. He shouldve left SOMETHING. One month later, I randomly look down at the floor after exiting the bathroom and see his name peering up at me, his name which I did not care to know before having him in my bed.
The number was found in the same vicinity where my garbage can was pulled out from under the sink and strewn around the kitchen area. Did he think to leave his number and then decide not to? What made him decide not to? Was it the fact that he was writing it on a torn off piece of a Keystone box? Was it the fact that I asked him his name and said “nice meeting you” after we had sex? Was it the dog shit on the floor? The unmade bed? Was it the fact that I picked him out like a package of meat at Price Chopper? “That one looks like it will be delicious”. I didn’t make it difficult for him. Because I wasn’t FOR him, he was for me.
He had lost his cell phone in the bar and had me call it so he could retrieve it…….so, I had his phone # all along….and he also had mine. What would that conversation have consisted of? “Hi, I’m the girl you met last night, we had nice conversations, amazing kisses and mediocre sex, we should do it again sometime.”
This is not the droid you’re looking for.
But, he served his purpose. See, I used him to prove a point. I didn’t use him for pleasure (thank god, it would’ve been a complete fail) I was upset with my significant other. We are functionally dysfunctional. I was locked down in this building with him, kept a dirty little secret. My point was, there are much younger better looking men who would love to spend time with me in public. In fact, complete strangers who don’t mind kissing me in the middle of a crowded bar. I DID have to make that point TWICE but, I do believe it is now instilled.
A public Thank You to the men who have served ;)